Live for the moment, plan for the future and see beyond the past. That's my motto today and so on..

don't know why but i realised that it's only when im bathing then thoughts start to flow in my mind and thats what i really want to blog. so when i actually come to blog when im using the computer, i feel that what i really want to type don't come to mind.. so yup. my mind's just an empty blank right now. n so i'll just leave it at that.

have loads of work and subjects to study now.. Crap shld have started earlier. But now, it's still not tooo late, so i'm pretty thankful. But i Really have to start now! I ain't got a choice. Jap written test is like nxt Wednesday okay! lols. Haven't started at all! Crap. Gotta start. Like now. No more time to play computer games anymore... I've been addicted to this particular computer game for Weeks la! Gdness! Gdness! lols! Boy oh boy. Damn it. it's at www ferryhalim.co-m/. The dash in between the com is intentional ar. Just don't want to give myself another link to it and lower my chances of playing the game. It's the bee game that i'm addicted too. Can't stand it. I've got no time already still play it. And it's like everytime i start playing, i get hooked. And i'll have to play it for like another 3 more times at least. Makes me tired. N kinda sick of the game.. Darn. And i really want to improve my english. And be able to sound more like yingyi in my writing. She's articulate and smart. I want to be able to write like her soon. Hehheh. But still i want to retain the cheery and carefree style i write too.

Hmm does the way i write now suddenly seem very high and then suddenly pretty low? Hmm.. Have you heard about a kind of depression called the bi-polar disorder? Well, putting it simply, it's when the person has extreme moodswings. so the person with the disorder can be extremely happy at this time and then extremely upset the next. Hmm... I was just comparing the way i'm writing now to it... But not to that extent la..Haha.. Oh well..

17 Dec! I'm looking forward to it! Yeah man! Gg to meet up with charlene n squad! Hehe. Looking forward to it after CT aka common test. Oh well. i've got to go...muses. Sayounara ( i think it shld be spelt that way haha not too sure...but i'll go check =))

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heheh HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHARLENE CHONG!! on 201107:))

i love the video! hehe sure brings back old memories:) thx 4 the effort Charlene:))

i wonder why ..ok its 1.16 am in the morning friday 16th november.. is it tt some of my friends in my current sch talk to ppl based on what kind of reactions they will give or is it just me? hmmm...ok i know tt i may probably be pmsing here but so? i dont't want to care..they dont seem to talk to me as often as i wld like... I know that i shld go talk to them then in this case...I know..trust me i know.. and i will do so Harder...Just don't give a damn n Do it!! ok ..i am soooo tired here..

the reason i want to blog here is not to just blog about my daily activites like what kind of things i've done day by day..I want to blog something that is more insightful, something that has meaning, and yup hopefully experiences that i can learn from and benefit from it. i don't want to sound boring here but i guess i probably sound like right now cos i am sooo tired. beat. ok i wanna crap more but i really need my sleep. Or not u will see a zombie-like me tmr hehe... so okie dokie.. signing off, tata. 1.32 am

p.s. i really miss my crcy friends... :/ Cc, Hj, H, Yy...etc... and i can't wait to meet up with them in Dec!!

You don't have to say you love me,
just because i am.
You don't have to stay forever,
i will understand.
Believe me. Believe me.

It was held on the 31st of Oct 07 on wednesday. just to say that i had really enjoyed myself there... Omg i'm sounding so formal here. ya. i kinda miss those guys now.. takahashi san i miss him.. haha he's soooo cute la.. at first when i saw him, i was actually pretty intimidated by them(the jap guys) la cos they had this attitude look plastered on their faces. scary la to me. Cos i'm like quite shy ard tall handsome guys 1 ma.. Somemore tt they looked kind of the atitude problem type only makes it worse. And what's more, i am the Grp leader la.. my gdness.. i was pretty lost at what to do then..

At the start when we we welcoming them, i had actually wanted to greet them konnichiwa and smile to them. But when i looked ard, nobody else was doing it so i just put it off u see. Hmm i guess things wld had turned round a lot differently if i had just been myself and not followed what the others were doing. hurhur. i guess. i wanted to blog this earlier but heheh, was too tired n didn't want too. so here i m blogging it down. boy i sound monotonous hur.

takahashi.. he was the one whom i was the most afraid of at first, but later when we played games i realsed tt he was actually the most enthusiastic 1 of the group lols:). Hmm. and here's the best part. Because of the language barrier btw us locals and the jap students, most of the time, we were communicating with each other through body language! hehe. Funny la. hilarious. And when takahashi actually spoke jap to me, i was gg like either "Hai,hai, hai"(Yes,yes,yes) or "Wakalimasen"! (which means " i don't understand" in Japanese) hehehe. Funny cos it's like a dumb person trying to speak to a person like tt. Haha. tt was the funiest part to me:). And when i finally pulled myself tgtr and gathered my courage to speak, i was like speaking in monosyllables haha. So you get a jap word followed by a pause, then a word, then pause to think then a word again! Haha. funny la..haha..

the only thing i wished tt i had done b4 this was i shld had prepared myself for this role as group leader. cos as 1 , i was supposed to help my grpmates with their jap. i've only prepared for the language barrier part, but i was not mentally prepared u see. That was the big problem. I didnt know what to expect. so when i first saw them, i was stunned. Didn't know what to do..how to react. N during the interaction time, it was worse. Trust me, i cld feel tt the atmosphere btw the jap students n us was tense. Oh boy, man i shld had prepared b4 hand what to do during interaction. but now i know whati can do. self intro and play games. That type where it requires one another to get to know their grpmates names such as 007 or "tititutu" or even the vry simple 1 tt requires all of us to recite our grpmates names from 1 end of the grp to the other..tt sort. so now i know:). I feel tt i've learnt a lot from this experience. Yes i know be it big or small, successful or not i learn from every thing i've gone through. And all in all, i'm just glad tt i was given this opportuniy to learn this at no price and for the chance where not everybody can get to meet japanese guys for free and have fun! Boy oh boy i want takahashi.. my new eyecandy((: hehe.